F***. F***, F***, F***. I was going for a whole story here but I ended up with a one shot. I was going for GD’s ‘But I love you’ theme (GD IS A GENIUS. I worship his fashion+lyricswriting+composing skills), but this ended up fitting perfectly with ‘One’ – Epik High. I couldn’t stop typing. Maybe I needed this. Teehee. Guess who.
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No one knows her.
Sure she has her family and her friends, and some people know of her.
But no one really knows her.
Not her best friends.
Not her twin brother.
Not herself.
No one …
But me.
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She’s lost a lot of people because of that. They thought she was or wasn’t one thing, and she didn’t want that. There was a specific way she wanted to be treated, and no one knew just how, because no one really knew her.
Her best friends were of no exception but they understood, and she was glad she had them. They kept her happy…they kept her sane.
Her other friends saw someone they thought was strong enough to handle everything on her own. …they were right in a way, but it wouldn’t hurt for them to sincerely ask if anything was wrong every once in a while. They were in danger of being lost because they didn’t understand. The innocent girl in her was so hurt during failed attempts to help them understand that the aggressive ended up cutting them off from her life to protect her.
Her twin brother understood the most, but he was too caught up with being treated his way that all he did lately was drain her of what’s left of her energy. As mischievous and haughty as she was, he took it to a different level and turned careless instead of carefree. Instead of helping him he made my kind drive him over the edge.
Sometimes she wished she was him. At least some people knew him. At least they were able to help him when he got out of control at some points.
But her … no one really knows her. When she speaks, she speaks with a cheerful tone and a huge grin, and she laughs like there’s no tomorrow, and no one hears that it comes from an empty heart. Sometimes even she’s unaware…she’d learned to shut it out.
But I haven’t.
I want her to cry.
Not for others, or for stupid little things, but for herself.
I want her to totally break down and weep her heart out and cry.
I want her to understand why... I want her to realize how broken she is.
And when she does, she’ll realize she’d cried all her emptiness away, and she could fill herself with something more. She will once again wipe her tears off and stand up, unscathed, and smirk all this away, because she’s part of me… because she can.
And when she hears me, when she hears my voice, she’ll know I saved her.
Because I’m the only one who’ll stick by her through any possible thing.
Because I’m the only one who really gives a damn.
I’m the only one she can turn to anytime, anywhere, no matter what.
I’m the only one who would never ever let her down, even if she lets me down sometimes.
I’m the only one who she can truly love and have forever.
And I’m the one…the only one who can save her now.
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oh the many levels.
v.2
F***. F***, F***, F***. You're driving me to do it, even though the reason is wrong. I could hurt someone, so even though you're driving me crazy, I'll stop myself. I won't do it. no no no no. or will I? gah. grar. *eats you*
you aren't alluding to yourself are you? 0.o coz i'd find a way to fly back there if you really have an empty heart! D: (or..papadalhan kita ng safety pin through post :)) )
it's nice bro :) nakakabitin! parang i wanna know pa the whole story! or how stuff will turn out! kung hindi ka tamarin, habaan mo :D
you aren't alluding to yourself are you? 0.o coz i'd find a way to fly back there if you really have an empty heart! D: (or..papadalhan kita ng safety pin through post :)) )
it's nice bro :) nakakabitin! parang i wanna know pa the whole story! or how stuff will turn out! kung hindi ka tamarin, habaan mo :D
imuy bien! XD
: > welll I just told you whose POV it is so I think you know the answer to that. xD the twin brother (the person who's closest to actually being my twin brother) is . . . I think you can guess, but I'll tell you later. I'll see if I can turn it into a whole story, or if it's better off this way na.
MY CARD. I'll call the post office :)) Oh I'll see rin if I can send a care package, I've been wanting to. -.-'
the photomanip you made...made me want to do another shoot with you but this class sucks (im taking up concept pho na~ studio lights babeeeeh~) coz im only allowed to use male models~ XD i miss you naaaa~
the photomanip you made...made me want to do another shoot with you but this class sucks (im taking up concept pho na~ studio lights babeeeeh~) coz im only allowed to use male models~ XD i miss you naaaa~
i'm thinking they want biological males huh. haha! miss you too <3 let's do a random shoot nalang next time bwahaha
yes please~~~~ hahahah~ me and dino were thinking nga to make you dress up as a guy~ XD sir dave still remembers youuuu~ *hates my new prof naaao*
UM HAHAHA. there could be a way, but I'd look like GD, puffy cheeks boy and all xD coincidentally, i DO have guy clothes xD and how do you know sir dave still remembers me? D: and why do you hate your new prof D:
the short was very sad.... and depressing.... and symbolic D': D"|
i know, i didn't plan it like that. but see the end? she has...the person/thing whose POV the oneshot's in!! she will be conceited again soon 8D and now you know why she's that conceited 8D
since I refuse to read the story 'coz apparently it's depressing and so... I just gotta say, the banner is fierce. It makes me wanna read OneShot but just not yet now. Probably and hopefully soon so I can really make a nicer and a more interesting comment:))
UM HAHAHA. there could be a way, but I'd look like GD, puffy cheeks boy and all xD coincidentally, i DO have guy clothes xD and how do you know sir dave still remembers me? D: and why do you hate your new prof D:
that's okay...big bang themed shoot is fuuun~~~ sir dave remembers you coz u r always our very special "sit-in" and yes he told me he remembers you and i hate my new prof coz i cant be creative....im too limited. it's like he only wants to do it "his" way....unlike sir dave na inallow kami to use our creative juices.. can you believe our current shoot has to have the concept of nationalism...im the last person you want to talk about when it comes to that...*venting out nao*
ooohh,, yun na pala yung picture :D cute naman ng guitar! :)) but seriously though, goood job! XD
I might totally go against the advice I gave you about..'aaron' ______ is so slow and frustrating (flirtflirtflirt but no effort :|) I might actually go out with ______ &*#^#& tell you on YM. :))
since I refuse to read the story 'coz apparently it's depressing and so... I just gotta say, the banner is fierce. It makes me wanna read OneShot but just not yet now. Probably and hopefully soon so I can really make a nicer and a more interesting comment:))
but for now, me labs yew :*
I understand : > I really do hope you feel better soon, you're about to start an adventure next week 8D and thanks, me labs yew too *3*
that's okay...big bang themed shoot is fuuun~~~ sir dave remembers you coz u r always our very special "sit-in" and yes he told me he remembers you and i hate my new prof coz i cant be creative....im too limited. it's like he only wants to do it "his" way....unlike sir dave na inallow kami to use our creative juices.. can you believe our current shoot has to have the concept of nationalism...im the last person you want to talk about when it comes to that...*venting out nao*
dude...I'M ASIAN~ XD
lol aww sir dave. he looks like Trix' oppa xD hmm think of it this way, sometimes you'll have clients talaga who are WAAY too stubborn and want everything to go their way, think of it as a challenge and training for that 8D you're awesome, I'm sure you can work your Aya charms on your projects anyway ;)
you aren't alluding to yourself are you? 0.o coz i'd find a way to fly back there if you really have an empty heart! D: (or..papadalhan kita ng safety pin through post :)) )